MARGARET

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" I would rather suffer alone than pulling anyone down with me "

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Friday, 25 October 2013 | 18:17 | 0Comment

nowadays, a lot of things happened and undeniably, it's affecting me.

some scenes have been replaying in my mind continuously.. like a ghost haunting me. from then, my mind will run wild.

it is the fear, the fear that one day i wouldn't be able to take the fact that such things may happen again..

imagining the scenes, over and over again..

sometimes,

i really really really wish that i can read people's mind.

i just want to know how i can improve myself so that i can be accepted by others.

5 consecutive days. 5.

will it continues on? I don't know.. and I don't wish to know.

I just want to lead a peaceful and happy life with him.

I don't wanna fear another unhappy day walking home with him with complete silence between us..

be it because of a messaging speed, messaging content and worst still, because of a donut.

he said he understand me, he said he know me more than I know myself.

then I thought to myself :"will I be able to understand him just like how he understand me?"

am I not observant enough? am I not detailed enough? or is it simply he's not revealing himself to me.

sometimes, I really hate myself for talking without thinking through my head.

"think before you talk", many said to me.

口无遮拦的我想对他说：“对不起”..

if I could live these 3months over again, I wanna go back to day 1.