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MARGARETENG
 " I would rather suffer alone than pulling anyone down with me " |
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Friday, 15 November 2013 | 17:34 | 0Comment 【因为害怕再一次失去然后受伤，所以我会不惜一切守护，爱护，来挽回我的爱】 • 放下自尊 • 全心全意 • Third.}
Friday, 25 October 2013 | 18:17 | 0Comment nowadays, a lot of things happened and undeniably, it's affecting me. some scenes have been replaying in my mind continuously.. like a ghost haunting me. from then, my mind will run wild. it is the fear, the fear that one day i wouldn't be able to take the fact that such things may happen again.. imagining the scenes, over and over again.. sometimes, i really really really wish that i can read people's mind. i just want to know how i can improve myself so that i can be accepted by others. 5 consecutive days. 5. will it continues on? I don't know.. and I don't wish to know. I just want to lead a peaceful and happy life with him. I don't wanna fear another unhappy day walking home with him with complete silence between us.. be it because of a messaging speed, messaging content and worst still, because of a donut. he said he understand me, he said he know me more than I know myself. then I thought to myself :"will I be able to understand him just like how he understand me?" am I not observant enough? am I not detailed enough? or is it simply he's not revealing himself to me. sometimes, I really hate myself for talking without thinking through my head. "think before you talk", many said to me. 口无遮拦的我想对他说：“对不起”.. if I could live these 3months over again, I wanna go back to day 1. Second.}
Tuesday, 22 October 2013 | 08:35 | 0Comment just a random thought that flashed through my mind today..
at times, i really hate myself for being so unappreciative.
when people think for me, and does things for me,
i just doesn't means to appreciate.
after all the nasty thoughts and feelings, i will then start to realize that the opposite party is actually doing things because it's the best for me, and spared a thought for me.
maybe i'm just being a princess, the center of the world,
thinking that the world just revolves around me and everything must go the way i want.
it's time for me to make a change, change my perspective and the way i see things..
and maybe we will be happier together this way (:
smile, be happy. first. }
Monday, 21 October 2013 | 07:33 | 0Comment twenty first october twenty thirteen, i realized the importance of communication between two. from verbal communication to text message communication..
i am one who really suck at text messages and bringing across my thoughts and ideas.
whenever i want to explain myself, i will tend to start to use all sorts of words and languages to protect my own stance.
others may feel that i am simply protecting myself with my words..
in actual fact, i just want to convey my feelings and how i feel.
i can't help but contradict myself in everything that i say.
simply because i am selfish. i tend to think about myself and my own feelings before talking.
but after that, i will just start to think about others and regret what i said.
that's when, i will start contradicting myself.
sometimes, i wish life is just as simple as ABC.
i would not have so many worries and uneasiness then.
i just want you to be happy, with me. |
